03/2015 - 3/25/2024

Rest in Peace, my sweet girl. Until we meet again.

I am exhausted...

Only got 4 hours of sleep last night and having to get up at 4AM certainly didn't help. 

My body is sore. I had to put a new bed together and some of the pieces were heavy and awkward for one person to handle. 

All the lifting, squatting and twisting were not too kind on my back and my Arachnoiditis. Luckily I am not actually crippled today.

Overall I feel exhausted. A lot of it is mental exhaustion from work. Putting in 60 hours a week, including weekends leaves no time to recover. Even the last 3-day weekend ended up only being a two-day because of work. 

I would much rather...

...not be at work today.

I think I am depressed. I've been in a funk for some time and in a bad mood for the last few days. Stupid things set me off; stuff that typically would be no big deal. I am feeling fat...well, that's because I AM FAT. I am on the KETO diet but depression and diet are worst of mates.

I am really tired of my job and my commute but I feel trapped. I make decent money, have good benefits and as much time off as I need, within reason of course.

The money is the problem. It took me 20 years to get to where I am and if I change jobs now I am looking at a 30% pay cut, minimum. Besides, what I am going to do? The same thing? Somewhere else? For less money?

At my age that seems like a really stupid idea.

Therein lies my dilemma. 

New flavors

I just came back to this blog after a long absence and what did I see first? The photo of my pup...I miss you girl...so much. 💔

2007- 8/18/2016

Rest in Peace my girl. I will forever miss you.

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

Here doggie, doggie...

Evening commute on a rainy day...just a few accidents...